Ajahn Sumedho (1934-present): Notice the space around him?
Now the spacious mind has room for
everything. It is like the space in this room, which is never harmed by what
goes in and out of this room. In fact, we say 'the space in this room', but
actually the room is in the space; the building is in the space.
When the building has gone the space will still be here. So we can have a
perspective, we have the actual walls and the shape of the room, and the space.
Right now we can see the limit of this room, and the space of this room is
contained by the limits of this building.
Space is something that we tend not to
notice, because it doesn't grasp our attention, does it? It is not like a beautiful
flower something really beautiful, or something really horrible -- which pulls
your attention right to it. You can be completely mesmerised in an instant by
something exciting, fascinating, horrible or terrible; but you can't do that
with space, can you? To notice space you have to calm down -- you have to
contemplate it.
This is because spaciousness is not
extreme, it has no extreme qualities. It is just spacious, whereas flowers can
be extremely beautiful, with beautiful bright reds and oranges and purples,
beautiful shapes -- extremely beautiful shapes -- that are just so dazzling to
our minds. Our something else can be really ugly and disgusting.
But space is not dazzling, it is not
disgusting, and yet without space there would not be anything else; we couldn't
see. If you had just this room, and filled it up with things so it became
solid, or filled it up with cement -- a big cement block -- there'd be no space
left in this room. Then, of course, you couldn't have beautiful flowers or
anything else; it would just be a big block. It would be useless, wouldn't it?
So we need both; we need to appreciate the form and the space, because they are
the perfect couple, the true marriage, perfect harmony -- space and form. We
contemplate this, we reflect, and from this comes wisdom. We know how things
are, rather than always trying to create things the way we might want them to
be.
Now apply this to the mind. Use the
'I' consciousness to see space as an object to the 'I'. We can see that
mentally there are the thoughts, emotions -- the mental conditions -- that
arise and cease. Usually we are dazzled, repelled or just bound by the thoughts
and emotions; we go from one thing to another -- trying to get rid of them or
reacting, controlling and manipulating them. So we never have any perspective
in our lives, we just become obsessed with repression and indulgence; we are
caught in those two extremes.
With meditation we have the
opportunity to contemplate the mind. The silence of the mind is like the space
in the room; it is always there, but it is subtle. It doesn't stand out, it
doesn't grab your attention. It has no extreme quality which would stimulate
and grasp your attention, so you have to pay attention, you have to be
attentive. Now one can use the sound of silence (or the primordial sound, sound
of the mind, or whatever you want to call it) very skilfully, by bringing it
up, paying attention to it. By concentrating your attention on that for a
while, it becomes something that you can really begin to know. It is the mode
of knowing in which one can reflect. It's not a concentrated state you absorb
into, it's not a suppressive kind of concentration. The mind is concentrated in
a state of balance and openness, rather than absorbed into an object, so that
one can actually think and use that as a way of seeing things in perspective --
letting things go.
Now I really want you to investigate
this so that you begin to see how to let go of things rather than just have the
idea that you should let go of things. You might come away from
this retreat with the idea that you should let go of things. Then, when you
can't let go of things, you'd start thinking, "I can't let go of
things," -- but that is another ego problem that you have created.
"Only others can let go, but I can't let go. I should let go
-- Venerable Sumedho said everybody should let go." But that very simple
thing is another "I am", isn't it?
Now you can take that simple thing and
begin to notice, reflect and contemplate the space around those two words;
rather than looking for something else, you just sustain attention on the space
around those two words. It's like looking at the space in this room; you don't
go looking for the space, do you? 'Where is the space in this room?' thinking,
'I am looking for the space in this room, have you seen it?' What do you do?
You look at it; you are open to it because it is here all the time. It is not
anything you are going to find in the cupboard or in the next room or under the
floor. It is right here now -- so you open, you begin to notice.
(The above is an
extract from the talk ‘Noticing Space’ found in the book ‘The Mind and the Way.’
A review of this wonderful book by Ajahn Sumedho can be found here.)
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